As I pack and prepare myself mentally for this transition, I find myself becoming distracted and even questioning my decision to move.

A position opened up in the company for which I am temping, and I had to do everything in power not to run away from my move and into this opportunity. And then earlier this week I signed my life away by submitting my Master Promissory Note for a Stafford Loan and was very depressed about going into more student loan debt and seriously wondering how I was going to make it for 4 years. Bemoaning the fact I am moving into an area having no real relationships outside my family. Not to mention doubting my life direction and wondering if I will really make it.

So distractions abound: job/career, money, relationships, my living situation, and a subtle doubting of my life direction.

I do believe God is drawing me into this, but it is hard to stay focused and not be sidetracked by so much alternatives. While I know the next step is GR, MI and seminary, the future is still so blank; my path is a shadow of an outline and it is taking much faith to have confidence it will be OK and unfold alright.

distracted, yet focused…
-jeremy

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